Thursday, March 29, 2007

A Haze between Then and Now

Wednesday, Mar 28, 2007

The other morning I woke up, and was laying in the quiet stillness of the house. Arthur was sleeping gently beside me, and the room was starting to show signs of the outside dawn. I turned toward the window and tried to go back in my mind to "the old days." I just couldn't find the details. I said in my mind, "Oh Andy, you're so far away..." and like some sappy TV show, the words and music to an old Carole King song started playing in my head:

"You're so far away, doesn't anybody stay in one place any more,

It would be so fine to see your face at my door.

Doesn't help to know that you're just time away,

Long ago I reached for you and there you stood.

Holding you again could only do me good.

How I wish I could,

But you're so far away..."

A moment of longing, a moment of sadness that lingered for a heartbeat or two. He will always be part of me, but human as I am, the details are becoming fuzzy...

Then I turned back to see the sleepy, loving eyes of the present...

and felt the joy of now.